Jehur (JEH-hur) was another
thing (er, person?) that wasn’t intended.
My story was putzing along with
a nice (if somewhat cliché) plot, filled with true love and purpose and all of
that, when BAM! – I had another innocent thought.
…Sigh. I should stop having
those. (Not really; I like them.)
What if, at some point, she sees one of the inn-guys again?
Aaand…cue a complete change in direction.
So, some stuff about him…
~He is newly 31 when he enters
the story. His birthday is April 5th, he has a medium shade of brown
hair, and light gray eyes. Ari calls his eyes “silvery.”
~I am basing some aspects of his
life on the Apostle Paul, with some Manasseh inspiration thrown in as well.
~He is a very high-ranking
H-guy. He is the third-most powerful man in his nation, and about the
fifth-most powerful in the entire world.
~He has a younger brother and
two younger sisters. He has an older cousin (Jek), who lived/grew up with him
and his family, and with whom he has a long-standing rivalry.
~He comes from a typical H-guy
family and had a relatively uneventful childhood. His father was strict, but
never abusive (say, like Azcmavel’s father). I wanted him to be “normal” – making
it all the more chilling that he becomes what he becomes.
~With him, I desire to show how
small wounds and fears, left unchecked and unhealed, can spiral into horrific
behaviors. Hurt people hurt people…
~His uncle (father’s brother)
decided against becoming an H-guy himself and was eventually disowned by his
father (Jehur’s grandfather) for it. Jehur’s father started off puzzled by the
decision but supportive of his brother, but slowly grew just as disdainful
toward him as their own father. Jehur witnessed all of this at a young age, and
as such…
~He is driven by a desire for
power, stemming largely from desperation to please his hard-to-please father
and a fear that he, like his uncle, will be disowned and scorned by those he
most admires. He vows at a young age to become the best H-guy ever, and he
tries his hardest. His deepest fear is that he will be found out to be not
enough. This is a leading factor in why he goes to the inn in the first place –
because in front of everyone, his fear comes true…
~Other reasons include: a need
for control, a deep desire for someone who won’t/can’t reject him (guess what
Ari does in his mind?), a desire for pleasure/relaxation (he never feels he can
let his guard down), a search for something to “fix” him. (Even though he doesn’t
consciously acknowledge that he needs fixed.) The inn not only doesn’t fix anything, but it makes him angrier and
he doesn’t know why.
~He does not feel shame or guilt
for the inn stuff (until later, at least), but deep down, he knows it’s wrong
and he can’t shake that feeling. He eventually goes home, hoping that being
around his siblings will help soothe the boiling inside. It doesn’t, just makes
it worse.
~He is kind of a mess.
~Personality-wise, he starts off
prideful, intensely prejudiced (both against d-guys and anyone who doesn’t
agree with him), ruthless, and calculating. He is serious and has trained
himself to be controlled and hard to read.
~I’m not sure what his eventual
personality will be yet, but I know he is somewhat suicidal for a while and
lives under great shame. Though he longs to fix the damage he has inflicted on
the world, the task feels insurmountable. But during his attempts to change and
fix things, his manner toward people softens. Especially toward those he once viewed
as sub-human and disposable.
~It was his idea (at age 18) to
use a half-breed child as the initiation into the H-guys. (From this post.)
~He has a dream-like vision that
awakens him to who he has become and what he has done. His ultimate desire is
to be good, perfect; within the H-guys, he believes he is that, and is on the
path that will continue to lead him there. When he realizes otherwise, sees
himself through someone else’s eyes, he is horrified.
~His transformation is a huge
part of the story, as are the relationships cultivated as he tries to change.
Not only with Ari, but with the people he has essentially persecuted, murdered,
etc. He becomes a leader of those he once terrorized. =) Also in this vein,
because of what happens with Ari, he makes it his goal to rescue people from
slavery and throws all of his passion into that.
~For part of the story, Ari
views him as the antagonist. He brings back everything she is trying to forget.
Funny thing, he views her the same way. She reminds him of the horrible person he’s
been; her presence whispers that he can’t really change, will never be able to be
anything other than evil and twisted.
~He is the key to Ari’s true
freedom and healing. She is the key to his.
~I completely love him.
~He looks something like this in
my mind, just with shorter hair. And different clothes.
Complex characters are always the most fascinating. Looking forward to learning more about his redemption!
ReplyDeleteThanks, Kelsey! I agree (both about complex characters and looking forward to his redemption)! =D
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